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Post by Sasha Davis on Dec 30, 2008 20:53:05 GMT -6
Sasha sighed and ran a hand through her hair as she thought about what Olivia was saying. "You are right. I will give it a little while longer but if she does not approve soon. I might go and talk to Adrian and see if he has any ideas." She said knowing that Olivia was right but she was still really scared for her sister and her niece. She didn't know how to help her.
She thought about it and decided to open up to Olivia she needed to trust someone. "It is alright to ask. The father of my baby is not my boyfriend." She said thinking of how to say this and hoping she did not sound like a slut. "Please don't think I am a slut. I am not. Jason and the father of my baby are the only two man I have slept with." She said as she turned to she was looking at Olivia. "Let me start from the being of sorts. Jason and I have been dating since high school. We were best friends before that. I care of him but for the last year things have been off with use. Something been missing. Then at the beginning of the school year I got a offer by the dean to be a teachers assistant for the new Mythology teacher Marcus Rodriguez." She said as she got up and started to pace.
"The minute I meant Mark there was something between us. There was this attraction. We were always flirting with each other and always hanging out. And is his so sexy and sweet and he just seemed to get me. I knew I had feeling for him and I fought them. Then day of the shotting when the shotting started I was in Mark's office we were grading papers when is happened. He locked the door and we stayed there. While there one thing lead to another and we admitted we had feeling for each other and one thing lead to another and we sleep together." She said as she fought the tears that were threating to fall.
"We have not talked about what happen that day since. Now I am pregnant and I know that I am in love with him and I don't know what to do. I don't want to hurt Jason but I know I can't be with him because I am not in love with him. I don't want were Mark and I even stand now. " She told Olivia as she turned and looked at her. "Does that make me a slut or a horrible person? I mean I am in love with someone else and I don't know how to tell my boyfriend?"She asked wondering if she was going to send Olivia running because of all the drama was telling Olivia about her life.
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Post by Olivia Baker on Dec 30, 2008 23:23:12 GMT -6
”Yeah that sounds like the only thing that you can really do at this point. Is to give her some space and let her come out of it on her own and if she does not then involve someone else.” she said, completely knowing how she felt about it. And honestly wanting to help her through it.. Olivia sighed and watched Sasha and all the emotions going through her face.
Olivia listened as Sasha started to explain her situation. She did not think that she was a slut and that falling out of love as happens to a lot of people. ”I don’t think that you’re a slut. I have no room to judge you at all because I hardly know you and even if I did know you I still would not judge you because that is not in my nature to do that.” she said, sighing.
”Well it sounds like you really care for him. And If I were you I would not feel bad about that part anyway. Yeah cheating is bad but it happens all the time and I’m sure that every single girl here has probably done it once in their life and if not then they people will.” she said, trying to make Sasha feel better.
”Honestly I dont think you are a slut or a bad person. Mistakes happen. Like I said before people fall out of love all the time. It just happens and you cant really do anything about it. You just have to go with the flow.” she said, looking at Sasha.”I don’t know how you could tell him because I have never had a serious boyfriend and have never been in your situation. All I can say is talk to him. I’m sure he will be upset but if you tell him before he finds out by someone else it will make it that much better.” she said, trying her hardest to make Sasha feel better. |
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Post by Sasha Davis on Dec 31, 2008 0:06:15 GMT -6
Sasha felt so much better after she talked to Olivia. "You are right and thank you so much for listening and not judging me. I know a lot of my friends and people that know me will and it feels good to talk to someone and not have them judge and for you to just listen thank you." Sasha said placing a hand on her still flat stomach and smiled at Olivia. "I need to talk to Jason it is just that he has not been around much lately. I need to tell him." She said walking over and sitting back down.
"As for names. I need to talk to Mark first and see what he wanted to do. If he wants to be in the baby's life then he can. But I am thinking if it is a boy. I want to name him after Christopher my brother in law. So I want to name him Christopher Marcus Rodriguez if Mark is alright with it. As for a little girl name I have no idea yet. Chris played such a big part of my life. He was the father and Brother I never had rolled into one person. And I want to honor him in some way and this is one of the best ways that I can think of doing it."She told Olivia as she smiled at the thought of naming the baby Christopher if it was a little boy. She just hoped Mark would be alright with it if he wanted to be part of their baby's life and she sure hoped that he does.
(OCC: Hey not to sound rude but can you please not use the blue in the replys. I can't read it. It hurts my eyes. I have meant to ask before I just kept forgetting.)) |
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Post by Olivia Baker on Jan 2, 2009 12:22:33 GMT -6
Olivia smiled at Sasha. “I love to listen and help people. It’s one of the best things I can do to help. It makes me feel better about myself if I can help people and give them advice.” she said, “Yeah, it would be a good idea to talk to Jason soon. It would be so much better for the both of you if you can be honest with each other.” she said, she did not have a boyfriend right now but she did have one back in high school so she knew that it was better to talk to them early about any problem both of you my be having.
“Yeah, that’s a good idea to wait for him first. It would be better for both of you having a child is a wonderful gift.” she said, looking at Sasha. “Christopher is a really good name. I really like it.” she said, “and It’s a great honor for your brother in law. I’m sure he would be very happy to know that you named your child after him. I know that I would be honored if someone named their baby after me.” she said, smiling.
OOC. I'm sorry about the color.. Is that better?
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Post by Sasha Davis on Jan 3, 2009 20:43:23 GMT -6
Sasha smiled at her again feeling so much better after talking to her. "You are right. I don't want to hurt Jason. He is a great guy but I can't be with if I am not happy with him. I need to follow my heart. I just wish I didn't have to hurt him." She said sadly as she thought about Jason. He had been her first love and her first major relationship. He was a big part of her life. He had made her a better person. "Jason made me a better person. I was a total bitch before I meant him. I was mean to everyone and didn't care who I hurt but he showed me that I didn't have to be all those thing and that I could have friends and be loved." She told Olivia with a smile on her face as she thought about how far she had come since them.
She sighed and looked over at Olivia. "Alright Livvy is it alright I call you Livvy?" She asked wanting to make sure it was. "I have told you my major dark secret. Do you have any you want to tell me about your self?"She asked smiling at her. She wanted to get to know Olivia better.
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Post by Olivia Baker on Jan 5, 2009 19:40:26 GMT -6
Olivia felt so much better talking to Sasha because she never really had anyone to talk to here. She was not new here but she never took the time to really get to know many people and now that she had gotten to know at least one person she liked the feeling of having friends here. “There’s not much you can do to not hurt him.” she said, sighing. “But I know if you don’t tell him soon and he finds out when you start showing it will hurt him even more. You cant hid the fact that your pregnant forever.” she said. “I know the feeling to have someone show you things and you love them dearly but some things cant always stay the same.”
“Yeah you can call me Livvy if you want. I don’t really have a nickname that people call me so that can be it.” she said, smiling then frowned when Sasha asked her if she had any dark secrets that she could tell. “Well not really, all I really have is that when I was in late middle school early high school I had a boyfriend that got killed and I have not really felt like I could have another boyfriend because of that.” she said, sighing. “I know that we were really young but I loved him dearly he was my everything so it was a huge blow to me that he died especially after my mother died when I was a child. It's not really a dark secrete but no one knows about it but you."
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Post by Sasha Davis on Jan 5, 2009 20:09:15 GMT -6
Sasha knew that Olivia was right. She needed to tell him before he found out some other way. She was two months along. In about another two she would be showing. She had to tell him before he found out some other way. "You are right I need to tell him. I just need to tell Mark first." She said to him as she ran a hand through her hair.
She smiled when Olivia said she could call her Livvy. "Alright Livvy it is then." She said to Olivia as she pulled her blanket up around her. She felt bad for Olivia when she talked about her boyfriend that died. She have not lost her boyfriend like that but her friend Emerald had. "I am sorry about your boyfriend. My friend Emerald just her boyfriend the day of the shooting. They were engaged to be marry." She said knowing Em was having a hard time dealing with what happen. She could just Imagen how hard it had been for Olivia. "Do you want to talk about him?" She asked wondering about Olivia's boyfriend and how he died.
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Post by Olivia Baker on Jan 6, 2009 20:50:48 GMT -6
Olivia nodded as she listened to what Sasha had to say. It was true that she really did need to tell him but she also need to tell Mark first. That way maybe he could help support her. She sighed as she listed to her ask about her boyfriend. It was true she was very close to him when they were going out and she loved him very much.
“Well I can describe him pretty much the same way you described Jason. He was my savor pretty much. Because of when my mother passed away when I was only seven I fell into a deep depression and he pretty much pulled me out of. I hated him at first because he would always be there when where ever I was it seemed like he was stalking me or something.” she said, smiling as she remembered. “But it turned out that he had pretty much the same schedule that I did so where ever I was he was.” she laughed. “He was very handsome too. Very clean cut, wore nice clothes. He had the prettiest blue eyes that I had ever seen.” she sighed again as tears came to her eyes. “ His name was Aiden. He was only sixteen when he died. He was out ridding his bike, he had not got his licenses yet, and he got hit by a truck. Turns out that the driver feel asleep behind the wheel. He survived for about a day but the injuries where to bad and he passed away. I’m just grateful that I got to say bye.” she said, wiping the tears from her eyes.
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Post by Sasha Davis on Jan 6, 2009 21:37:14 GMT -6
Sasha listened to Olivia talk there were tears in her eyes by the time Olivia finished telling her about her boyfriend. "I am so sorry to hear that. Sounds like he was really important to you. It sucks to lose someone that young and someone that was so close to you. It sounds like you really loved I am so sorry for your lose." She said feeling bad for her new friend. She wiped the tears from her eyes. She knew she was crying because of the pregnancy hormones and because she knew that it was like to lose someone you love. "Did the person that fell asleep get in trouble?" She asked wondering if they ever got any kind of justice for him.
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Post by Olivia Baker on Jan 6, 2009 22:49:03 GMT -6
Olivia watched Sasha as she was talking about Aiden. “I did love him, Very much.” she said, “And even now I’m only just starting to feel like I can date again. And that happened when I was sixteen.” she said looking to the ground. “Yeah the person did get into trouble.” she said, sighing. “He got like 3 or 4 years in prison.”she said, “I don’t think that is nearly enough because it was his fault he fell asleep. I think he was doing some type of drunk that made him sleepy.” she said. “Thank you for letting me talk about It I feel better to get it out into the open.” she said. Smiling through her tears. “It’s nice to have someone to talk to when times are hard.”
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Post by Sasha Davis on Jan 6, 2009 22:59:53 GMT -6
Sasha reach over and grabbed place a hand over hers. "I am so sorry that you lost him. But he would want you to be happy." She said smiling at her. Hoping she was being of some help. She nodded her head agreeing with Olivia "It is nice to have someone to talk to when you need to." She said to her, yes she had friends but right now with every thing that has happened she could not go to them and talk to them. Not only that but they think of her a goof ball. She was not a goof ball and she hated that her friends thought that of her.
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