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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 0:18:24 GMT -6
Emerald was taking a walk. Her Ipod on and blasting in her ears. She really had no clue where she was headed, she was just letting her feet lead her whereever they wanted. It was almost five minutes later when she finally took in the familiar scenery around her. She was headed to the football field. She took a deep breath, trying to steady the nerves and other emotions that had suddenly came up when she realized where she was headed. Still, she couldn't stop her feet from moving forward, not that she wanted to anyway. It was all too soon that she was making her way up the familiar bleachers and taking a seat in the spot that she had occupied at so many games. She took in the field and surrondings before her. In the last month since she had been her, nothing had changed. It was still the same field, at the same school, surronded by all the same memories she no longer wanted to think of. She took a deep breath trying to get air back to her lungs as all the memories came back, leaving her breathless. She thought back to Chase Adams. She remembered his smile, his laugh, and his smell. She loved how he smelled. She closed her eyes as she remembered the night that he porposed. It had been the night after the biggest game of the year. They had just won and everyone was celebrating. She had been looking for Chase to congradulate him when she heard her name being called from the speakers. She immediately looked up at the announcement box and had seen him standing there. And in front of everyone, he had asked her. It had been the best moment of her life. Her fingers began twisting the ring around on her finger without even thinking about it as she thought back to that night. Now all those dreams have gone up in smoke. Chase died two months ago in the shooting. Emerald took in a shaky breath, trying to calm herslef. She wouldn't allow herself to cry. She missed him sure, but she always had thought that crying was a sign of weakness, and she was not weak. She took in a few more shaky breaths and tried to calm herself again. It was no use. All the tears and sadness welled up. She felt the first tear slip down her cheek and just like that, more followed behind. She tried to wipe them away but soon gave up and just placed her head in her hands and just let everything that she had been feeling go. For the first time, she allowed herself to cry over what had happened two months ago.
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 23, 2008 0:51:40 GMT -6
Jack cursed as he walked back out one the field. He was half way home when he remembered that he had left his play book behind. He could not believe that he had been so stupid as to leave it behind. But then he had a lot on his mind. Everyone in Haven had a lot on their mind. They all have since the day of the shooting. He had lot one of is best foot ball players that day. Chase was going to make is big and he knew it and so did everyone else in Haven and now he was dead. Shot and killed the day of the of the shooting. He died a hero, he had saved if sisters life.
Jack could not believe that Chase and all the others were dead. Everyone one had lost so much that day and he didn't know if any of them were going to be able to come back from it. He looked up when he heard someone crying and saw Emerald sitting in the bleachers crying. He remembered her because of Chase talked about her all the time and of course he had been there the night of the came when Chase had asked her to marry him. That proposal was going to be talked about for years to come. He had never seen two people as happy as Chase and Emerald had been that night and now it was all gone.
He closed his eyes and ran a hand over his head as he let out a sigh and started to walk up the bleachers towards her. When he got to her he sat down next to her and reach out and placed a hand on her shoulder not sure what to do or say to her. "I would ask you if you were alright but that is a stupid question to ask any one right now. So I am going to sit here next to you and if you want to talk I am here Emerald. I am so sorry about Chase." He said to her as he looked over at her and wishing he could be more help but he head no idea what to do.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 1:20:01 GMT -6
Emerald heard someone sit down beside her, but she still couldn't stop her crying. She was tempted to shy away when she felt the person place a hand on her shoulder, but she couldn't. There was something comforting about that hand. Instead, she couldn't to sit there, head in her hands, as she cried.
When she heard Jack talk, she was a bit surprised that it was him that was there. Sure she had talked to him a few times when she had been waiting for Chase to finish changing. Still, she found comfort in his words and nodded slightly as the tears continued.
After a few more minutes, her sobs had finally died down to sniffles. She wiped under her eyes and looked at her hand to see it was blackened from her mascara. She reached into her purse and pulled out some tissues and wiped the remaining tears from her face. She pushed her sunglasses over her eyes as she finally looked over at Jack.
"Um, sorry that you had to see that," She told him returning her gaze back towards her hand and she began to twist the ring again. "Usaully, I don't do this kind of thing. I guess that everything just caught up to me all at once." She looked back up at him. "Sorry," She said again.
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 23, 2008 1:36:27 GMT -6
Jack sat there next to her while she cried. He wanted to reach out and hold her. He had no idea why he wanted to do that. He has never wanted to do that before. He frought the feeling and just kept rubbing her back while she cried. He wanted to help her. He has only seen her here a few times and the had talked. He knew that she was a nice girl and she didn't deserve this.
He smiled down at her gently when she said she was sorry. He shook his head at her. "Em you don't have to say that you are sorry. You have been through a lot in the last two months. It is alright to cry, yell and scream if you want. You have the right to do all of those things." He said to her as he reached up and wiped a tear from her face with out thinking. He pulled his hand back when he realized what he had just done. He had not idea why he had reach up and wiped her tear way but he just hoped he did not scare her off or freak her out. He didn't know what to say about it. So he just looked down at her.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 1:49:57 GMT -6
Emerald looked up at him when he wiped away a tear. She shook her head slowly to clear it. "This wasn't suppose to happen," She told him, "I don't mean me being her like this crying my guts out," She paused and took a deep breath steading herself so that she didn't cry again. "I mean this whole thing. Chase wasn't suppose to die. No one was suppose to die. God, and I just hate Matt so much for doing this. He ruined everything." She looked at Jack. "And it's been two months and I still can't get used to it that I won't see Chase again. And I don't feel like I deserve any of those things." She sighed again. "Sorry, I shouldn't be dumping this all on you."
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 23, 2008 2:01:46 GMT -6
Jack listened to her talk and he sat there and listened to her vent. He knew that she needed to. Everyone was holding in all their feeling over that had happened in the last two months. He shook his head and looked down at her. "Em it alright it is part of the grieving process. You can come and vent to me all you want and if you ever want any thing to hit let me know. I have a weight room full of punching bags that are great to vent on." He said to her wanting to give her some kind of out let to deal with what has happened.
He sighed and looked down into her eyes again."And you are right you don't deserver this none of you did. We don't know why Matt did what he did. We might never know, but I do know that Chase would want you to move one with your life and not be angry any more." He said hoping that he was saying the right thing was not pissing her off.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 2:11:53 GMT -6
Emerald looked up at him. She looked down again after a few minutes. "How can I move on with my life?" She asked him. "Chase was pretty much my life. We spent almost every waking moment together. Now that he is gone, I don't know what I am going to do." She sighed as she looked back up at him. "He was my rock, you know? He was the one person that I could actually be myself around and now..." She trailed off as she shrugged. She sighed gently. "But is there anyway that we could go check out this weight room of yours? Hitting a punching bag sounds like a really good idea right about now. And I know that Chase wouldn't want me to be angry anymore, I just can't help it."
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 23, 2008 2:40:43 GMT -6
Jack reach out and took his hand in her. "By taking it one day at a time."He told her as he looked down at her. "No one espects you to just a be alright right away. I know you love him and that losing him is tearing you up. We all know that. It won't be easy and there are going to be days that you don't want to get up and go on. It is going to hurt and it is going to suck. I know it is not fair and that pain is not going to go away for a while. I am here if you need someone to lean on Emerald. I am here if you need a friend." He told her paying he was not over steping or being to forward. He smiled when she asked about the weight room. "Come on lets go. Everyone else is gone now so you will be alone. No one sticks around now unless they have to." He said getting up and holding his hand out to her.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 17:49:58 GMT -6
Emerald smiled at him and nodded. "Thanks Jack," She told him, "For letting me rant to you and being here for me during my breakdown." She smiled at him again. "And yeah. I did love him, I still do. But you are right, I can get through this, one day at a time. And thanks, I may have to take you up on your offer if I need someone to rant to." She smiled at him again and without thinking, she leaned forward and kissed him gently on the cheek. She immediatley stood up afterwards and nodded. "Yeah, let's, um, go down to the weight room." She said as she blushed gently, not believing that she had just done that. She leaned down and picked up her purse, avoiding his gaze.
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 23, 2008 22:35:30 GMT -6
Jack smiled at her. "Any time you want to rant to me that is fine. You know where to find me. I am here most of the time." He told her as he looked down at her. He was suprised when she leaned up and kissed him on the cheek. It was just a kiss on the cheek but wished is was more. He shook his head thankful the she turned away from him. He knew that there could never be anything more between them. She had just lost the love of her life and he was older then her and a teacher. He ran a hand through his short hair as he watched her pick up her purse and bag. He dropped his hand that he held out to her and put it in his pocket. "Alright then come on I will show you to the weight room and to the punching bag and some gloves." He told her not sure what to say to her now.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 23, 2008 23:31:22 GMT -6
Emerald looked at him. "I thought that all the teachers pretty much lived off campus." She said, "Why do you stay here?" She knew that it wasn't nice to pry, she was just curious. She knew that most teachers lived off campus and left as soon as they could, not liking to stay later than they had to anymore. She smiled at him again and nodded. "I would like that," She told him. She placed her bag over her shoulder. "So, how often do you use the punching bags?" She asked him to make conversation, not wanting to fall into silence. She couldn't stand the silence lately.
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 24, 2008 0:41:01 GMT -6
Jack shrugged and looked down at her. "I don't have any one to go home to and it is boring there." He told her honestly as they walked to the guy. "Yes I come here all the time. It helps me thing and helps with the stress also." He told her as they walked into the weight room. He walked over and picked up a pair of light weight boxing loves. "Lets get these on you and see if you can make this bag move." He said holding the gloves out to her. He was not sure what to say to her right now. He just knew that he wanted to be here with her right now.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 24, 2008 0:58:49 GMT -6
Emerald looked up at him, slightly surprised when he told her that. "You don't have a girlfriend?" She asked, "What about the professor that teaches English? You guys always seemed cozy." She hoped that she didn't defend him by saying this or anything. She was just curious. She bit her lip as she looked at the gloves he was holding. She took the gloves and put them on and held them up so that he could tie them for her. "I thnk that I can make the bag move. I have a lot of anger that needs to be released." She told him and smiled lightly.
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Post by Jack Triton on Dec 24, 2008 1:16:00 GMT -6
Jack looked over at her as he walked over to the bag and smiled at her. "No, no girl friend. And the English professor and I are just friends and nothing more. I just have not found the right girl yet." He told her as he placed his hand on each side of the bag and looked at her. "Then hit and lets see what you got but I must warn you the thing weighs a ton and is not that easy to move." He said to her being honest. He has seen a lot of hard asses come in here and try to hit this back and seen it barely move it not at all. He had even seen a few hurt them selfs trying to hit it.
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Post by Emerald Christanson on Dec 24, 2008 13:27:21 GMT -6
Emerald smiled at him and followed him over to the bag. "Aw, but you guys would look so cute together," She told him and smiled again. She looked at the bag for a moment before turning her attention back to him. "Well, then I guess all I can do is try my best and if I don't move it, oh well." She looked back at the bag before she took a deep breath and hit the bag.
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